How it started

Published on 31 March 2024 at 21:43

As mentioned earlier I'm a mother of two lively boys. They are the lights of my life, full of fun and mischief! My eldest son (Jake) is obsessed with space. He's knows far more than I do I won't lie. I am always learning from him. For Halloween last year he wanted to be an astronaut so he had me create his outfit head to toe. 

The idea of a space teddy bear probably came from this picture! That space helmet near drove me crazy! 

A few months back I sat down with an idea, I had no intention of ever publishing my writing. Even though it had always been something I wanted to do I never would have considered actually doing it. I just wanted to do something for my children that they will forever have. My eldest was ecstatic to have a book dedicated to him and his little brother, and Liam well he was he was just ecstatic because there was pictures of teddy bears!

After I had completed the story and finished the illustrations I decided to show it to a few people, thankfully I received a good response. Much better than I had expected. After a bit of pushing and convincing I relented and went on the journey of publishing. The way I was looking at it was this, no matter what happend, if I sold 10 copies, 100 or 1000 it didn't really matter. What mattered was:

1. My children would forever have something from me, they would know how much I loved them and will always have it to look at.

2. I had achieved something I never thought I would be capable of doing. 

However as soon as I was about to hit publish, the anxiety started building. All sorts of thoughts of how it could fail started taking over. I sat on it for days considering if I should or shouldn't publish it. Thankfully the anxiety died down for a short while and I managed to gather my thoughts and I hit the button.

You might be wondering if the anxiety is gone now its out there and I've made a couple of sales, the answer to that would be absolutely not, but that's okay. Nothing worthwhile was ever meant to be easy! 

To anyone putting things off due to self doubt, anxiety or what ifs. Sometimes you just got to take a deep breath shake yourself off (now I've got Taylor Swift in my head)  and walk into it anyways. If it works out great, and if not well at least you can always say you tried. 


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Peter and Moira
9 months ago

Well done.